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Saturday, September 27, 2003

Are You Loony?

Here's how loony I am (at Emode.com):

To borrow a phrase from Forrest Gump, loony is as loony does. You know how true that is — in fact, you've embraced it. Because while you certainly have your moments of insanity, you know when to say when. Sure, you get a kick out of occasionally doing and saying things other people think are goofy or off-the-wall — you're a real sucker for being the center of attention now and again — but there are plenty of times when you'd just as soon be calmer and more serious. The same goes for expressing your emotions. No stranger to strong feelings, you choose your battles and control your highs and lows, saving your emotional outbursts for when you need them most. After all, fun and craziness are all well and good, in the right time and place, but balancing your "up" and "down" times earns you more respect in the long run. Not nearly as nutty as a fruitcake — but maybe giving Pralines 'n' Cream a run for its money — you're the perfect mix of impulse and restraint.

This is pretty accurate, although I'm getting loonier all the time...

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What's Your Stress Style?

I'm a Stoic (at Emode.com)

You're a Stoic. Your stress style follows the path of many steadfast folks: Think of the Brits with their "stiff upper lips," or the Germans with their cool-as-a-cucumber reserve. It amazes those who know you, but stress hardly seems to affect you. In fact, friends might even say you're oblivious to the tension in your life.

But being in denial about stress doesn't really make it go away. Small problems may seem to take care of themselves when ignored, but major life issues need attention to be resolved in a positive way. The next time you're faced with serious stress, pull your head out of the sand and try giving the situation your full attention for a change. You might be surprised to find that your coping skills are actually quite good — even if they're a little rusty.

I can't really tell if this is me or not. Maybe I'm in denial. Hmm.... But I do tend to avoid my problems, so it could be me. I'm addicted to quizzes, but I guess I'm not the only one since there are so many dadgum quizzes out there. They are kind of fun. I guess everyone is searching for answers to who they really are.

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The Original IQ Test

I took The Original IQ Test at Emode.com. Here are my results:

Congratulations, Michelle!
Your IQ score is 126

Is that good? I have no idea, because I'm not willing to pay $14.95. Maybe that makes me even smarter than a 126? At least more practical. I can't see what the report will do for me other than swell my head a little more. Not that it's too swollen. I'm pretty down on myself most of the time, but then I've heard that keeping a blog is a pretty narcissistic thing to do.

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Friday, September 26, 2003

Wasting Time

I made the mistake of getting on Neopets today. I don't need to do that again for awhile. I wasted hours today for nothing. The games aren't that fun. Well, I won't say never, but I need to pick out a few games that are fun and stick with those. I mean, that should be the point of games, right?

Cassandra called this evening sounding positively wretched. Heh heh. Well, I'm not happy that she's miserable, just happy that I'm right. She got over it when I talked to her. Since I didn't buy into the sobbing too much, she thought the better of coming home. I told her she could, and that it would probably be for the best, but I told her she would have to cooperate and not jerk us around in a few weeks when she decides she'll be happier with Mark again. It's funny in a sad way. She said Mark isn't working and doesn't love her because he'd rather get stoned or drunk. She's the only one working, so I guess she's supporting him. It's nice to be right. I hope she'll learn a lot from this, but I still think she has a long way to go.

I've eaten too much again. I guess the stress got to be a little too much today. Sorry excuse, I know. Maybe if I just wait to eat until afternoon. I tried that when I first started, and it seemed to work. That and if I could stick to mostly foods in the more natural state. I'll just have to keep working on it.

I truly feel like crying tonight. I've been feeling this coming on for awhile. I haven't really cried since Mother's Day, or sometime thereabouts. I'm not a big crier. It hurts so bad, is embarrassing, and messy. I hardly ever indulge in it. It's kind of how I feel about puking, too. Maybe I'm eating to keep from crying. That would make sense.

Well, I'm going to get ready for bed and read. I'll be back...

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BYU Television

I decided to try BYU t.v. to see if that would be a good way to study my scriptures today. Wow. There was an Education Week (2001) talk by Brent Barlow called Parenting: Build on "the Rock". It was wonderful, and I looked up and marked many of the scriptures he gave to help parents teach their children by using the scriptures. It was great, and I'm counting it as my scripture study for today. I'm definitely going to start using BYU broadcasting more often.

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Thursday, September 25, 2003

I lost 1.5 lbs. at WW tonight! Yay! I'm especially happy since I thought I'd gained for sure. I've been really bad this week and didn't keep up with my points or anything, but I think I lost weight because

I ate more soup

I walked a little more because I used my pedometer

I slept a lot more, so I must have needed it

Other than those things, I really blew it this week, so those must have made up the difference.

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Puttin' On The Socks

O.K., my last post actually motivated me to take a shower, get dressed (actually, a sort of intermediate outfit until I finish the laundry), wash a few clothes, and put away a few things. Now I'm looking at socks. Why do I hate to put on socks? I think it's the socks. My least favorite ones are the ones I wear on Thursdays. Why? Why least favorite or why Thursdays? O.K., I hate the socks because they're tight and more synthetic than my other ones. Why do I wear them on Thursdays? Because they might be slightly lighter than my other ones, and I have to weigh in at WW tonight. Pretty dumb, huh? But, actually my other ones are in the dryer anyway. So, I can do this right? ...... Yes! They're on. I'm done.

I think I need to change my imood indictator. I think "lazy" is becoming a self-fulfilling prophecy.

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My Political Philosophy

I found a fun quiz called World's Smallest Political Quiz. It was pretty accurate since it said,

"According to your answers, your political philosophy is right-conservative."

It shows a diamond-shaped grid, with a dot in the section that applies to you. It was pretty cool, and based on only 10 questions.

I also found a link to The Pooh-Piglet Psychometric Profiler. I am Eeyore. I don't know if that's a good thing or not, but it does seem to suit me more than Tigger, Piglet or Pooh.

Does it sound like I have too much time on my hands? Probably. I could possibly go take a shower and find something to wear. Nah. Well, I do want to do that before my mother comes over. I want to at least give her the appearance of being somewhat responsible. And if I don't clean stuff up, she'll be dying to do it for me. That's all she ever wants to do when she comes over.

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Wednesday, September 24, 2003

I need to turn off my brain and go to sleep soon. Today was a decent day -- at least I did what I wanted, which was to listen to the radio, read the news, play on the internet, etc. Jason and I continued Hogfather. We can probably finish it tomorrow. It's always bittersweet to finish a really good book. I have more Terry Pratchett books, thank goodness. Charity has started reading them too, which I think is really great. But she prefers to read them alone. I love to read them with Jason, because we can always enjoy a good laugh together. The only other author we enjoyed this much was P.G. Wodehouse.

I like to read with Scott too. For our anniversary in January, we booked a cabin in Eureka Springs, and spent most of a weekend in front of the fireplace reading The Fellowship of the Ring. It was really fun. But we didn't finish reading, and it's not really Scott's kind of book, so I'm left to finish it on my own now. He really prefers political books. With all the other books I've been reading, I only pick it up every so often. So, I guess I will stop writing on here and get reading. Maybe I can finish reading it and The Two Towers before the next LOTR movie comes out.

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A Discworld Short Film!

Troll Bridge is probably going to be out sometime next year. Go here to find out more.

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Car problems

I'm having more car problems. I went to the store a little while ago to get some important stuff like Coke and chips, LOL. I had a hard time getting home from the store, but at least I don't have to go anywhere now. Which is great to me, because I hate to drive and taxi people around. Scott said to just wait until he can look at it again, which won't be until Saturday. I'll try not to sound too happy.

I need to clean a little today. I may actually get something done before Scott gets home. Or not. I have INERTIA.

Oh, I read a great article on WorldNetDaily's Commentary page called Hollywood's Favorite Child Molester by Michelle Malkin. I love all of her articles, and this one is especially good. It's about Victor Salva, the director of Jeepers Creepers 2, who is a creep. I don't watch horror movies, but if I did, I'd boycott this one.

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Guacamole Doritos

Jason brought home Guacamole Doritos last night, and they are SO YUMMY! Curse Jason and curse FritoLay. How am I going to do at my weigh-in tomorrow night? Probably going to gain a few pounds. All I can think about are Guacamole Doritos and how I can go buy more. Darn.

Scott called a little while after I posted last night and was on his way home. I was just freaking out about everything last night. Today I'm just sorta blah. Again, I have accomplished nothing other than to get dressed and put on some makeup.

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Tuesday, September 23, 2003

The English Roses

O.K., that 5 minutes went by fast, and I cleaned a few things.

Oh yeah, I should mention this new children's book by Madonna that just came out called The English Roses. What was she thinking? I mean, I'm sure people will buy it because she wrote it. It will probably sell better than Hillary Clinton's new book and will probably contain more facts. But Madonna writing children's books??? Am I really awake? I don't want my children to have anything to do with her. I mean even if we ignore her entire past, remember the recent MTV music awards? Sorry, it's just not something I'm ready to overlook no matter how good her book may be.

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PMS?

This is the first animated butterfly I've made. I love butterflies, and thought I'd give it a try. (I lost the original graphic, but this is an updated patch with the original butterfly)

I haven't accomplished much of anything else today, and I'm not really sure why I'm just sitting here now. I guess I'm trying to deal with my rollercoaster-emotions. Plus Scott still isn't home, so I'm starting to worry. He usually calls me to let me know when he'll be home. He was supposed to be out with the missionaries tonight.

Also, the kids are playing video games, which is either too loud because they're having fun or too loud because they're fighting about them. But they're too loud either way.

But there really is no real reason for how I'm feeling except hormones. At least I'm not homicidal, LOL. Just anxious and sad. I hate this, but at least it's temporary insanity. I'm going to set my timer for 5 minutes and go clean something and come back. Maybe if I stay busy I will feel better.

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Monday, September 22, 2003

I went and saw Dr. S. again today, which is actually something I look forward to every month. Maybe I am crazy, LOL. I've been seeing him for a few months now, and this is the first time I've really had a lot of stuff bothering me. I've done pretty well at being positive until recently. I think I was thrown off by the whole Cassandra/grandchild issue. Anyway, it seems that like my mom, I am worrying (again) about a lot of things I can't control, and even many things that may never happen. So, I need to be aware of my thoughts more and try to change the unproductive, negative ones. My doctor didn't tell me that, he just let me figure out what the problem was, and I went from there. It was great to just "spill it" and be able to talk to him without him trying to fix me. He's a great guy.

I went to the Social Security office, and hopefully got the whole thing straightened out about Ian's SS#. I tried to apply for our state's insurance for children, but DHS told me that someone else was using Ian's number in another county, so I would have to get some verification from the SS office before Ian could get the insurance. Anyway, it all went my way. After all, I have the SS card with his name and number on it, which the lady at SS said was the only proof I need. Someone transposed a number somewhere else and they need to fix it there. One thing I thought was a little strange when I went in was that there was a sign on the door stating, basically, "no guns allowed" and a security guard (or a police officer--- didn't want to stare too much, LOL) wanted my ID when I first walked in the building. I mean, I live in small town, U.S.A. I don't make it a habit to go to the Social Security office ---I haven't been there since I got married back in 1988. But I didn't expect security there. Maybe it has been since the Oklahoma City bombing or 9/11. Still, it does seem a little too much here.

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Sunday, September 21, 2003

Out-Of-Sorts

I was feeling spacey and out-of-sorts this morning. I'm not really sure why, but I was really negative. I'm sure there were a lot of factors involved. And then I was late for the second week in a row to church. This time it was because I was out of Coke, so I stopped to get one out of a machine, plus the transmission was doing funny things again.

Anyway, I think part of what is bothering me is the news. I read a little too much bad news sometimes, and then I need a day or so off. So I took today off, and I do feel a little better.

Scott and I finished reading Treason this afternoon. It was a wonderful book. Ann Coulter is one of the smartest women out there. This is the second book of hers that I've read. I plan to read High Crimes and Misdemeanors next after I read David Limbaugh's Absolute Power.

Well, I'm going to go read Hogfather with Jason. I'll be back...tomorrow sometime.

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